Well here we are again:] This past week has been a great one, one filled with moving mountains within myself. I truly am grateful for our Heavenly Father who is so very patient and trusting with me. Haha, I don't even deserve it.
So I got the opportunity to go on exchanges with Sister Colton (sister Possin's current companion) and at first I was really looking forward to it. I was excited thinking that I was going to be able to help her and comfort her. Man, was I wrong. I hop in the car and for the next 40 minutes she just yells, yells, screams, vents, drives angrily. I was very happy to get into the apartment.. but oh it didn't end there. I stayed up til 2 in the morning listening to Sister Colton. I thought that I struggled with Possin . . . haha she made my transfer with her look like a piece of heaven. She's really struggling and it seemed like every time I offered advice or comfort, No. she just wanted to be angry. By noon the next day I just felt like I was being poisoned. Hate and anger are just some seriously toxic feelings and I wanted to get the heck outta there. We planned on doing service with their district but all I can say is there was very little service going on. I was so upset by what the missionaries were doing. Just hanging out having a good time. It killed me. We ended up at a members home and they wanted all of us to take this stress test thing.. haha when I took mine it was through the roof!!! I was so completely stressed out, I wanted to help, to be a good example to these missionaries, but man.. do I say something? Do I tell them how disappointed I am in all of them? Or do I just go on like it's no big deal. This drug out ALL day long and by the end of it I just wanted to go back to bed and start over.
We had zone conference the next day and the topic was Pleasing Man or God? Haha . . . how ironic. I knew what I needed to do. So the next day during our planning session I just turned to Sister Bonner and said "Hey I need to say something to the missionaries" . . . but I realized I really just needed to talk to one. An elder who I've been pretty close to my whole mission, he kinda is the leader of the pack. We drove 50 miles out of our area (and yes we paid the price for it later) I sat him down and had no idea how to go about the situation. He looked at me and said "Bowden spit it out already!" And I just blurted Elder Contrys . . . You need to be better!" Haha and then I kinda cried and then I told him how much I cared about him and that it killed me to see him this miserable. Ya wanna know the secret to happiness? Do what you know is right. Just simply do it and I promise you, you will be happier. He actually responded better than I planned, we had a little heart to heart and he is working again:]
We got to teach one of our investigators Chera with President Pingree!! It was one of the neatest experiences that I've had! It wasn't anything incredibly special, just a simple lesson about obedience. Chera had her baptismal interview that night and should be having her big day on the 7th:] I'm really so excited for her. As we were leaving President said "Sisters, you teach so well. You talk to your investigators as if they were your best friend." Wait, isn't that what it's supposed to be like?
OH BUT THE BEST THING OF THIS WEEK!! BARBARA MOORE TOOK OUT HER ENDOWMENT AND IS NOW SEALED:]]] It was such an amazing experience to watch her go through all of it. The whole time I just felt like I could die from happiness! The temple truly is the best place we can spend our time. As they were being sealed I just felt how incredible of an experience it is. Ahhhh!! I couldn't stop smiling and just this big feeling of YOU DID IT:] Haha I'm a missionary and that family is now sealed. That's what we're aiming for right? Building eternal families. It's so good:]
But basically things have been incredible. I'm looking forward to the continual changes that come into my life. I'm so grateful that we can change, that we can become better, and that throughout the whole thing Heavenly Father just loves us. I'm learning every day and striving to become the person He knows I can be:]
LOVE YOU ALL!!